Loss for what, I am not sure. I am just feeling loss. Certainly not for words, I have lots of those. It all started with the following email conversation; (order of conversation bottom to top)
From: "Jessica"
Date: Dec 10, 2010 6:54 PM
Subject: Re: RE: Question
To: "BOSS"
I understand that me being out has been a strain on the office, but I do not understand not being told that if I did not come back sooner there would be a chance of me not having a job.
On Dec 10, 2010 6:08 PM, "BOSS" wrote:
Jessica,
I wanted to communicate with you regarding your return to the office. After
your last email I determined that I couldn't go 12 weeks without help in the
front. The last 8 weeks has been difficult and we have tried the best that
we could to cover the front office. I could not keep it going without
getting more help. I hired a new girl today and the plans are that she will
continue with us long term.
I would like for you to come and talk to me in January to see if we still
have additional needs but as of right now I had to get additional help.
Blessings,
BOSS
From: Jessica
Sent: Tuesday, December 07, 2010 11:57 AM
To: BOSS
Subject: Re: Question
Sorry for not replying sooner. I still plan on coming back at the 1st of the
year, Monday Jan 3rd.
On Dec 6, 2010 4:48 PM, "BOSS" wrote:
Jessica,
I wanted to touch base with you in regards to coming back to work. When
you left on October 14th for bed rest we never really qualified what plans
where or if there were any changes to you retuning. I just wanted to open
dialogue as to what your plans are.
Blessings,
BOSS
So what I got out of that is I am unemployed. I am a new mom struggling financially just to be able to take maternity leave to bond with my baby, and now I am UNEMPLOYED!!! And that's not the part that bothers me most.... I am just so shocked and hurt that my boss would do this to me. This is a man who's mission statement starts with "To steadfastly operate by biblical principals". I can not find anything biblical about this. I have worked for this man for the last year and a half, only getting sick once, promised full time never getting it, not complaining when my hours were cut, constantly being told I was not doing good enough (unrealistic expectations), and ever striving to meet those expectations. It just pisses me off too no end. I told him I was pregnant as soon as I knew, so he had at least 8 months notice. I never missed a single day of work while pregnant until I was put on bed rest.
So you would think there must be something I can do right? Nope!!! In my stupid employee handbook you have to meet the following in order to take FMLA;
Worked the last 12 months...Check!
Worked at least 1250 hours in the last 12 months...Check!
Be employed at a location that has 10 employees in a 75 mile radius... F*@K!!!
I knew this when I took my leave, but I never dreamed my boss "The Amazing God Fearing Man" would do this. So now here I sit at 1AM, while my baby has been sleeping since 10. I can't sleep, I can't stop thinking long enough to sleep. I feel like a failure ( I know its not my fault) I feel like a bad mother that can't provide for my child. I want to know where I am supposed to find another job I can walk to, and come home to feed my baby during lunch. What job will let me pump every two hours???
I know I will figure it all out, but I really needed to vent! So now that I have done that, I am off to pump.
